confusing are the winds of change

It's kinda agonizing to notice that you have changed so much you feel like you don't know yourself anymore. I want to find the girl inside me I've always been but right now I'm just a bit tired. I had thought I was just lost a bit.. Now I'm a bit more lost so I might not be writing or then I just might. I want to find myself and to do that I think I should do things that are like me.. like whimsical things! Though I just might rest a bit for a while now.. btw, I'm gonna fail the entrance exam so it would be waste of time to go there - I haven't done maths for too long. Luckily I have a study place already.
Happier things, plz!I baked cupcakes for my friend who left for New Zealand for summer. I'm gonna miss her! And her happy attitude. I also baked those cupcakes for my friends' housewarming party. They moved to the same place, tho not all of them are roommates, so they decided to have one party for all of them. We grilled and it was fun! I had pineapple, sausages, red pepper and marshmallows for the barbeque. Love them. Minus sausages, they were just because I needed to eat something "proper" and pineapple and red pepper would just not be enough. I ate only one sausage which is pretty much enough for me.
Oh and about those cupcakes! I got them rise like real cupcakes should, oh I'm so pround of myself and happy. yay.

Oh and with my friend who went to NZ we thought about going to Calvin Harris' concert but she's there and I'm not so much a fan, besides, I don't even have money. So I won't be going.. I'm not crying because of that, it just might've been fun. But somehow I've gotten a bit addicted to this song.

This is a bit random - I don't post videos usually anywhere but just to make this post a heavy heavy thing technologically speaking (in onionish-way of course) I post one song I like a lot and uh-oh I don't know why but still...

wiggle wiggle

A friend asked me to come to her friend's birthdayparty so I went.. And for our pre drinks I decided to do some jello shots. I had never tried doing some but all went well in the end.. another friend mentioned that you simply can't mess jello shots up.
The party itself was a lot of fun! And new friends also.. This time I actually had to speak english, I always do that while drunk, and now finally no one is slapping their hand over my mouth. (tho I do enjoy making my friends slightly irritated, and it's just having fun, my friends "hating" my accent. haha)
I really like getting to know these new English-speaking friends, or well.. we speak english while together, they're degree students from across the world, mostly Europe. Most of all I've talked to two incredible girls, they're really nice and lovely.

pic by a friend ♥

One of them was this friend who invited me to join them to their friend's party along with my one of my other friends and also asked us to come to do degree tutoring too.. I thought why not, the training won't take too many days and I already am going to tutor the Finnish side, it'll take some arranging but I think I'll make it if two other guys are gonna do it too. Now I'm very busy and stressed, having so much to do for next week and the training is tomorrow, but I'm still happy. I'm gonna do this!

As I said I decided to become a tutor. We had a camp few weeks ago(? time flies so fast so I can't make out of it) and I met a lot nice people, I wish I had more resources to hang out with them and get to know them better etc. But I've been quite tired and summer break is closing in so we have a lot deadlines now, besides the exams are closing in too.

Not so "official" student things.. I participated in celebration week for first of may(=Viikon Vappu).. The week before 1.5. we had events around in campuses and outside.. and in bars&nightclubs. We watched movie, sewed badges on our overall's and had some tasks on checkpoints we had to go to. I hosted one checkpoint with bodyparts-game. In it a group is told what bodyparts and how many are allowed to touch the ground and they have to figure out how to do this and hold the position for few seconds. During this event I got sick so no drinking during the actual firts of may celebration.. Nah, I had still fun, no need to drink alcohol everytime.

I know this wasn't it and I had something else to write about but can't figure what it is.. besides, better get back doing my schoolwork so I won't get too stressed. Lecture diary, bleh.